I find it amazing that when someone in the spirit world wants something done, they usually find a way to make it happen. Sometimes even forcefully.
I was talking with Terri online today as she was doing last minute e-mails before she left the apartment for good. She told me that she had been crying on and off all day, and that nothing had been going right. We decided to move our conversation to telephone to make it easier.
I listened while she told me all the things that were going through her mind, all the things that Jay would never get to do, all the things that would remind her of future plans that would never happen. I talked a little, listened to her cry, and helped what I could.
At one point, she started crying again. I reached out my 'hand' and put it on her shoulder. Suddenly, I had the feeling that someone else was there. I closed my eyes, and although I wasn't projecting, I saw a blue ball of energy desperately trying to get to Terri. It was hitting against her shields and bouncing off.
Without a doubt, I knew it was Jay. (Don't ask me how I knew, it's just one of those things.) He knew she was hurting, and he wanted to help her. He saw me reaching, and made motions toward me. He knew I could help, and he, or one of my guides showed me how. He was very demanding. Later when I had told Terri how demanding he was, the words that felt right were 'you will help me now'. She said that this was very much Jay.
I told Terri that I needed to take down her shields. (She had built up a wall of grief, and that was keeping Jay out.) She was a little afraid. I told her to trust me. She asked why I needed to take her shields down, and I told her because someone wanted to talk to her.
I slowly pealed back the layers of her shields until I had gotten them all down, but for some reason, Jay still couldn't get in. An idea came to me (and I have a pretty good idea where from), and I reached out and created a bridge, a portal for him to cross. As his energy crossed the portal, I felt immense love passing into Terri. Not wanting to intrude, I pulled my consciousness back so I could not feel it, and just held the bridge in place.
A few seconds after he entered her, she started crying harder than she had been so far, real wracking sobs. I just sat and listened. There was nothing that needed to be said. It was then that I got hit with her emotions (grief) pouring out. I had pulled back as far as I could and still maintain the bridge. I thought to shield (actually instincts did), but never having done anything like this before, I didn't know if I could maintain the bridge from behind shields. (This is a situation we healers get hit with a lot, whether to protect ourselves, and possibly stop healing, or take some punishment while continuing to heal. I chose to maintain the bridge.)
I listened until the sobs subsided, about 10 minutes later. Terri said that it had been intense. It had felt like my energy when I give her a hug, and it had felt like Jay's, but not completely either one. I figured because he was using my energy to get across to her, it would feel like a combination of both. Terri told me that she had a headache from all the crying. I told her that I would take care of it, and she told me I had done enough already. She was thankful for what I had done and didn't want me pushing it. I said to just sit back and relax. I reached out and took her headache away. I think it surprised her, but she was better. Hey, headaches are easy, raising the dead, well that's not something I expect to ever do.
After we had hung up, I had to leave my desk and go clear the emotions that had washed through me. I cried for a moment, then let the energy clear from my system. If there is a next time, and there probably will be with someone else if not her, then I think I will try shields.
This was another learning experience. I am told that now that the pathway has been established, Jay can help Terri whenever she needs it. This is good. He will always be with her.
The whole time I was keeping the bridge, I kept remembering a couple thanksgivings ago when I got a call from a friend who was being pestered by a spirit that needed help to get to and comfort a grief-stricken husband. That was actually one of the first posts I had made out here. (The post is November 24, 2000.)
I now add this to my knowledge base, which I hope will continue to grow. Spirits have a way of making their needs known. I think I am getting better at listening. I hope so.
May the light and comfort of a loved one be with you always.