It was an interesting fair yesterday. This was mostly due to the fact that I was out of control energy-wise.
The morning started off slow, so I took the time (and quiet) and worked on the journal entry I posted yesterday. After a while, I took a few minutes, and did my affirmations, including the new ones I was given the night before. After I was done, I could feel the lightbody again. It didn’t last real long, but I had touched it.
A little while later, I was pulled into a group Reiki session. For some reason, I was having problems. I started feeling drained and tired. I know that when this happens, one is using their energy and not channeling Reiki. As I tried to connect properly, and couldn’t, I switched and reached lightbody. This flooded our subject with lots of energy, but once I let it go, I felt tired again, and for some reason, rather nauseous. I had to sit down for a little while.
One of the things that bothered me was that my sight scanning was not working right. When it did work, I found that it flip-flopped sides. I would see a problem with the right shoulder, and it would really be in the left. I had no problems with hand scanning, so I stuck to that.
Chris was ready for her massage. (She is always my first customer.) I was still ‘not right’, but didn’t want to put her off any longer. I took a moment and did my basic energy exercises, and started doing massage. What happened was that I just fell into my normal mindset as I did the bodywork. I was tapped into upper energies, and it all flowed and told me where to go and what to do.
Basically, the bodywork grounded me. I was able to do all I normally do during a massage session. The physicality of the bodywork brought me back to where I needed to be. And I was able to do Reiki while I was working on a body.
It was all very, very unnerving. I was totally in a state of flux. I guess you could say I was all fluxed up. My energies are changing. They are changing rapidly, and yet, falling backwards, at least so it seems as some of my abilities go (three steps forward, two back).
At one point, I was talking with someone that had ongoing problems. I actually became lightbody and looked at her problems in that mode. I was able to move some energy around. I don’t know how much good I did. I’m not sure what I am doing in this mode, and I keep thinking in other modes so that maybe I need to learn a few new modes of thought. So, I am not finding too much trouble getting there, its just that I don’t have a clue what I am doing when I arrive.
One thing did work though… I was standing a few feet in front of her, and I did the routine that allows me to tap into and sample her emotions. That worked real well. Actually, it does work well when someone is this close. Usually when I do things like this, the person I am focusing on is several states away.
Well, it just goes in with the muddling that happens when we learn something new, and try to hang onto what we already know. I think part of this is that I need to let go what I already know to be able to take that ‘next step’. It is something I will have to see.
At any rate, I am moving forward, although somewhat dazed and confused. But, as I do it, I am keeping a positive attitude on it. We’ll see what comes as I mix new energies with old. I really want to see the next step in healing that I think I should be able to take once things get settled.
Take care. Love and light to all.